"Caca-the-bed!"-Coll to me re: the Mo debacle

Un
be
lieve
able

That crazy wingnut I have called friend for 24
2/4 years has this am
rejected the mailer I pulled off for her

That's IT
no more work/slave for pallies
the now on waivers pallies
she is on ice
the really thin kind
w/me

Who are these people and what the hell am I
doing w/them?!


the sell-by date is looong
overdue

Ricky don't lose that number

It's the only one you own
or is it?
I've been ringing him and ringing him
shut down the cellie lassnite
and holy mackerel
dude called back
Jesus Christ on rubber crutches
now the fun
the chase begins
ya wanna play?
Let's p l a y
MY way, bit
woo hoo!

"i believe, I believe, I know it's silly, but I believe--Natalie Wood as Susan in Miracle on 34th Street

I am sad that Christmas and oh my God,
New Year Eve is not what it used to be for me .
The family celebration very difficult for me; for all of my sisters
our brothers just show up w/kids in tow.

I am very sad that Rick A. did not--doesn't call
it's another sitch that I either dodged a bad guy, or I sabotaged a possible steady sex source or the truth that was in the cards:

He is NOT the one, Catherine get it?
Got it.
You knew that already. Knew it.

He is doing you a favor.

Keep looking. I know you are lonely and tired of it all.

Let it go, Louie.

2 martinis,verrry dry.< thanks> oh, did you want someting?--Bullets over Broadway

Illusion, what the heck did I expect?!
Riiight the guys a magician and I've made myself waaay too available
cut it out cut my losses-to-be
and run run ruuun to the nearset exit
I know his plaaaans
don't
include
me

Go chase after some ho from Las V
or was it Texas both go right ahead
-
aaah shit
Click
delete
dunzo

Stop calling dude
stop stop stop stop


I am so over it ALL

Champagne for my real friends and real pain for my sham friends-in some Spike Lee joint

Sleight of hand
trick or treat
went to the art thing-y
newest new man showed up
late
swak'd moi goood
in public

followed him home
got to it
re
peat
ed
ly

I want you for my gf my fiance
I want to have a child with you
do you want that he whispered deep in the night

all of that
oh yes

can it be true
is it all just right there
a home
a family
the real thing
or
is
it just
an
illusion

(non) Love Story II

Where the Sam Hill was I?

Oh yeah--I can't sleep cos I took a risk and drove all the way up to McCoy's here in Chi

didn't
refused
to stop myself from getting w/him
Once AGAIN
zero
O
nada
nothing for me but an ache
it's been 11 mos
said I to myself
I need to feel--
I want to be
aahh sheeeyat
self blame why didn't just say hey I don't LIKE this
I hate it, BTW
nope
he got up dressed and disappeared
coffee?
I realize that he's NEVER going to give me anyTHING ever
so I fixed up
noticed a very pretty 49 yr old face and I knew that if I didn't get the basic fuck outta there I was going to die
of lonliness
I go it's so "over",
so I got out
drove A-
waaay
here's the grim part:
Uturned talking to myself
don't just leave w/o the TALK
lied (now that made TWO of us Aries in the Olympic lying finals)
I pretensed that I left my ahem lacy bits behind--
attempted to engage the asshat in a TALK
he rudely avoided like the 20 something he is
that I thought I could handle manipulate get my own back make do MY bidding
and he walked away from me;
called the snatch that was ringing him all the 10 min he was bleeping me
and said nada nothing about moi
by now I was racing to get outta there and back to MY fam
where I am safe
some fucking snatch-just-talked-to Mc-on-the-cell is standing there all 120 lbs of her brunette 20 something-ness right next DOOR with an Acura for sobbing out loud
I lowered my Cavalli shades gave him the dark brown eyed hate-look of my life and squealed outta there
gort all loose hours later on mimosas @ fam brunch
and called his ass and got the last word(s)
am I safe from the un-protected sex wit'cha
oh yeah and if you want(ed) to have an affair w/ me this is the big time and you can't EVEN deal
bye

I love you Phil,I love you Phil--Oliver to Jenny in Love Story

Love such a strong word
to me
and when I for the first time did not mean it
it came back to hurt my heart
the younger much younger man
McCoy said the words to me
a week ago tonight via cell
and I wanted to believe so badly that I shoved aside real true feelings
I KNEW he would 'come back'
be kind to him
all that bs
bs bs

I'm not only up--I'm on my way out-Ina Claire in Ninotchka

Un beleiveable
My seestar got fired after 10
TEN
years @ her corp job
She made it thru a merger an aquisition and
having to do a reverse
PERVERSE
commute

Fuck'em
they's trash

I hope she means it that she has 5 mos severance
w/ benes

That's why it is called a
de
press
ion

You think I'm gorgeous.You want to date me love me and marry me -Sandra B in Miss Congeniality

Kiss kiss welcome to the new pick-up/ kiss/dump-- guyz
Ian-- Mon night BMW 3 series (yuk) all suited up yuppie liar
I go wanna smooch? and buttoned down dude gave moi the intense stare after a nice one
I tripled it and gave it right back (the in the eyes stare)
scardy-cat!
so I go-- uh no
to a ho-tel
do ya want me to walk ya back to your car
Yes
you stoopidAss
sheesh

I slowed waay down Wed night Ter (damnitalltohell-my WASband's name)
dude stood for an hour drunk as hell chattin moi UP
dance and private smooch
Him Iwannadoya
moi gottaknowaman1st
him
I don't wanna relationship(cos they always always always have one or more poor gal all messed up--)
too bad
Advice
shave your head and drop the Bball hat

I remain wishing
on every star

Trust Me

At Redstone in Mtka, MN
I piped up and said to you Chad

DON'T DO IT

Drop all that "October 1st" non-
sense
forgive your
wife
and yourself

and flip the pre-nup into Lake Mtka
where it
belongs

By 2018
what will 5 bad years matter?

Stop including me!-J Schwartzman in Darjeeling Express

The non cards say:

McCoy is mad as hell @ moi and will not return my call
cos I cut him off @ the knees cos I said I am not in love w/him.

Kf HAS A GF repeat it own it knew it know it. I told you LAST time, said Di.

Ed Rudolf @ is NOT gay
b. freaked cos I said non-print erotica was BORING ( he thinx I think HE'S boooring)
c. I am a 'staight-man's girl'-- damn-a right!

I go where is my huzbinn?
"Drunk!"
No no no my F U T U R E huzbinn?!

Di How do I know?!