2 martinis,verrry dry.< thanks> oh, did you want someting?--Bullets over Broadway

Illusion, what the heck did I expect?!
Riiight the guys a magician and I've made myself waaay too available
cut it out cut my losses-to-be
and run run ruuun to the nearset exit
I know his plaaaans
don't
include
me

Go chase after some ho from Las V
or was it Texas both go right ahead
-
aaah shit
Click
delete
dunzo

Stop calling dude
stop stop stop stop


I am so over it ALL

Champagne for my real friends and real pain for my sham friends-in some Spike Lee joint

Sleight of hand
trick or treat
went to the art thing-y
newest new man showed up
late
swak'd moi goood
in public

followed him home
got to it
re
peat
ed
ly

I want you for my gf my fiance
I want to have a child with you
do you want that he whispered deep in the night

all of that
oh yes

can it be true
is it all just right there
a home
a family
the real thing
or
is
it just
an
illusion

(non) Love Story II

Where the Sam Hill was I?

Oh yeah--I can't sleep cos I took a risk and drove all the way up to McCoy's here in Chi

didn't
refused
to stop myself from getting w/him
Once AGAIN
zero
O
nada
nothing for me but an ache
it's been 11 mos
said I to myself
I need to feel--
I want to be
aahh sheeeyat
self blame why didn't just say hey I don't LIKE this
I hate it, BTW
nope
he got up dressed and disappeared
coffee?
I realize that he's NEVER going to give me anyTHING ever
so I fixed up
noticed a very pretty 49 yr old face and I knew that if I didn't get the basic fuck outta there I was going to die
of lonliness
I go it's so "over",
so I got out
drove A-
waaay
here's the grim part:
Uturned talking to myself
don't just leave w/o the TALK
lied (now that made TWO of us Aries in the Olympic lying finals)
I pretensed that I left my ahem lacy bits behind--
attempted to engage the asshat in a TALK
he rudely avoided like the 20 something he is
that I thought I could handle manipulate get my own back make do MY bidding
and he walked away from me;
called the snatch that was ringing him all the 10 min he was bleeping me
and said nada nothing about moi
by now I was racing to get outta there and back to MY fam
where I am safe
some fucking snatch-just-talked-to Mc-on-the-cell is standing there all 120 lbs of her brunette 20 something-ness right next DOOR with an Acura for sobbing out loud
I lowered my Cavalli shades gave him the dark brown eyed hate-look of my life and squealed outta there
gort all loose hours later on mimosas @ fam brunch
and called his ass and got the last word(s)
am I safe from the un-protected sex wit'cha
oh yeah and if you want(ed) to have an affair w/ me this is the big time and you can't EVEN deal
bye

I love you Phil,I love you Phil--Oliver to Jenny in Love Story

Love such a strong word
to me
and when I for the first time did not mean it
it came back to hurt my heart
the younger much younger man
McCoy said the words to me
a week ago tonight via cell
and I wanted to believe so badly that I shoved aside real true feelings
I KNEW he would 'come back'
be kind to him
all that bs
bs bs

I'm not only up--I'm on my way out-Ina Claire in Ninotchka

Un beleiveable
My seestar got fired after 10
TEN
years @ her corp job
She made it thru a merger an aquisition and
having to do a reverse
PERVERSE
commute

Fuck'em
they's trash

I hope she means it that she has 5 mos severance
w/ benes

That's why it is called a
de
press
ion

You think I'm gorgeous.You want to date me love me and marry me -Sandra B in Miss Congeniality

Kiss kiss welcome to the new pick-up/ kiss/dump-- guyz
Ian-- Mon night BMW 3 series (yuk) all suited up yuppie liar
I go wanna smooch? and buttoned down dude gave moi the intense stare after a nice one
I tripled it and gave it right back (the in the eyes stare)
scardy-cat!
so I go-- uh no
to a ho-tel
do ya want me to walk ya back to your car
Yes
you stoopidAss
sheesh

I slowed waay down Wed night Ter (damnitalltohell-my WASband's name)
dude stood for an hour drunk as hell chattin moi UP
dance and private smooch
Him Iwannadoya
moi gottaknowaman1st
him
I don't wanna relationship(cos they always always always have one or more poor gal all messed up--)
too bad
Advice
shave your head and drop the Bball hat

I remain wishing
on every star

Trust Me

At Redstone in Mtka, MN
I piped up and said to you Chad

DON'T DO IT

Drop all that "October 1st" non-
sense
forgive your
wife
and yourself

and flip the pre-nup into Lake Mtka
where it
belongs

By 2018
what will 5 bad years matter?